last nite was a happening nite for my family.. haha
was talking abt the man whom sing K in the middle of the nite....
was considering if i should call the police or not...
but who knows?
my daddy call le.
wah.... the police so not effective lar...
coz u noe y?
they nv come...
when i woke up in 6am plus...
the man still singing....
non-stop.
12 noon, its his kids turn to sing...
wow lao... non-stop sia.
irritating.

reali lar... the police so so so lousy. hmpz !
hahaha.......

tml O level MT.
so sianz mann`
haben study alot....
haiz.
can anybody save me?
haha

wah lao...
someone sing K now..
wat's the time now mann....
feel like calling the police...
haha !!!!!!!!!
*evil me*
noisy!!!!
sound like killing chicken.......
dun u tik my ear's very BLESSED ?
y this family so cute?
lurve to sing at this hour...
go slp can?
shut up can?
police pls go their hse can?
oh my... noise pollution!
its ok to sing, but not ok to disturb ppl's sleep & peace.
yupx yupx.
in Jesus name, that particular mic spoil !
yeah!
PEACE to tamah Jurong.
amen.
wahaha

non O level MT liao
didnt study much....
mux pia liao.. hee
=)

rmber to pray =)

DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW ; GOD IS ALREADY THERE.

things are happening...
i duno wat to do.
so i shall juz leave it to God.
i will do my best in wat i can do & leave wat i cannot do to God.
=)

when God is with me,i shall fear nth.
when God is with me, everything will be alrite..
when i am in a "messy" mode...
i juz stop myself &...... be assured that God is with me..

when i noe God is with me, everything is so different.
with God, i am someone with courage, filled with hope & faith, joyful & i dare to face my tml, i dare to face my probz....
if i am not assured of HIS presence...
i am someone vey timid, someone who fear of anything & everything....
so.. God is my strength, God is someone that i need & cant do w/o HIM.

see how impt God is to me?
many more.. cant name it all...
HE plays a big role in my life...
w/o God i am nth.
w/o God, i am of no difference of a dead man.
yay.......
y ppl muz leave God?
dun they noe that they need HIM?
dun they noe that HE love them?
dun they noe that life with Jesus is the best?
dun they noe that life w/o HIM is like hell?
ppl who leave God only rmbers wat they have given to the church.. but none of them rmber wat God has given them, how the church has blessed them.
they forgot abt God's miracles & wonders in their life, they forgot the times when they sing praise to God, the times when God touch their heart...
they forgot abt how their life been change.
they forgot wat is love.
they FORGOT !
not that i am angry....
i pity them.

if u love Jesus... y hesitate?
would anyone die for you?
*JESUS DID IT*

yay
i am grad frm JURONG le =)
hmmmmm....
guitly...
din study much today... haix
no much time left....

HE IS THE POTTER AND I AM THE CLAY
This tells me that.....
- HE IS IN CONTROL
-HE MOULDS US
-WE CAN BE WHO HE WANTED US TO BE
-HE CREATES US!
-HE LURVES US

yay.......
i pray that i will be who HE wanted me to be...
coz i wana live my life according to HIS will..
as my life is for His kingdom.. amen =)

had a dream ytd...
dream that i had a boyfriend...
this is 2nd time le...
my fren says that i am despo...
nahz! i dun wana have... i am too young for that..
anyway... my 1st dream very weird...
i had bf & yet its like so so normal to everyone...
2nd dream is i gave up my relationship with God & my beloved sis & bros juz for the sake of that guy...
oh my.. wat a dream
when i wake up... i was thinking to myself...
"how dumb am i?"
to give up God for any reasons, is juz like giving up addidas shoe for the sake of a pair worn-out-$1 socks.
not worth it..
coz only in GOD, i can have the best, coz HE give me the best.
HE wun give us anything that it's not the best for us.
that includes probz =)
so... since it's the best for us...
y complain? y grumble?
give thanks =)

9 The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
10 "I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve."
[-jeremiah 17 : 9-10-]

there is a great difference between mearly reading the word & make e word come alive in ur life. made a prayer juz now, b4 reading the bible...
"God now i am going to read your word.. i pray that i will not treat this as another QT.. but i wana meet u.. this few mins to come.. i wana experience u..it will be a life transformation moment.."
ya.. i reali tot so...word of God is frm God ... make sense?
haha..i muz grab every opptunity to meet God...

i wana grow....
i dun mind testings if i can be a better person for God.
coz God deserve a better me..=)
i wana replace my fear to trust & faith..
with God, i can be strong......
yay....
i reali wana be more like Jesus...
its tough.. but with God...i can =)

getting more & more neg nowadays.
esp in the aspect in my studies...
when i did the past years O level papers
in my heart was like... "my doomed day is getting near"
when ppl ask me to trust God....
i often ans this to myself ..
"not that i dun wana trust God... i'm juz being realistic, i am that lousy"or...
"not that i dun trust God, i dun trust myself"
but i tot thru ytd....
God's wonders is nv realistic.. is nv abt if i can make it or not...
its HIM.
also rmber... "no miracles bcoz of the lack of faith"
so frm now on...... i muz work extra hard & of coz... dun look down on my dear God..
i cannot, but He CAN.
trust trust trust !

abt my unit....
i am thankful to have a strong armour bearer like Jolene...
God always provides...
reali....
God is real...
when i see how hong kun & cindy get baptized...
i am very touched!
not that i nv see ppl baptized b4 lar...
but is that..that moment..
when i peep & saw them speaking out..
i was like "YEAH"
haha!!!!!
they had their tears of joy & i blive that their lives will nv be e same anymore...
God is real...
i can testify that. =)
u too...

come for camp....
dun miss it.
coz u'll regret if u miss it.
trust me

"TINGTING"
thats wat i have been hearing today...
& that's frm ms joyce tan
haha
was doing my accounts..
& along the way... made alot of stupid mistakes...
so... was kana "T-I-N-G-T-I-N-G" frm her..
still got dragging that kind...
haha..
& most of them are calculation mistakes...
all kuku mistakes...
can see how "seh" am i...
damn seh......

juz realise that sundae ice cream not bad...
was actually dispising it..
haha....
my theory is... concentrate eating..
& u will find it nice...
weird but it works..
haha

met up with pei si in the morning..
fruitful ;)
very fun thou...
hee...
she so kuku!
going clementi watch movie...
wat a place...
haha
she said... save money & also create atmosphere...
coz she will be watching the wig.
wow.......
if me..... i wun even bother to go clementi..
haha
jurong east is already too lousy for me to be inside AGAIN
not to talk abt clementi.
haha
talking movie... long time no watch le!!
last watch was the wedding cluster...
with chu lee...
that was like mayb 2 mths ago?
my last shepherding with her...
&... we sat the wrong seats!
coz of laziness or rather "hack-care-ness"
we make a joke out of ourselves..
haha
the show very bian tai one....
suit chu lee mah...
haha
joke joke... =)

gonna grad frm JSS le
2 more days?
haha
yeah and boo.
yeah coz i am no longer a high skool student...
boo its also bcoz that i am no longer a high skool student.
ministry thingy lar...
need to rise up a new generation...
if not become "botak"
jialat.

wed west cg!
yay!!!!!!!
=)
grow grow grow!

not forgetting.......
"being victorious is our birthright"
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

save save save!!
muz save money...
$7 for bbq & west Cg
$85 camp.. early bird...
$??? fir WFL
come on... dun complain...
its an investment =)
worth it...
juz ta han 2 weeks .. can liao!!!
yay... worth it?
=)

SLACKER !
hate this word...
hmpz!!
i dun wanna be a slacker.

feel so blessed...
hehe...
i muz jiayou.
thank eelee...
for helping me so so much..
hehe...

see?
in the kingdom.....of GOD
we can be so so blessed =)

oh no... its swinging... its swinging...
STOP SWINGING !!!!!
argh.

i'm so sinful.
yups.

God.. i wana make u smile..
i wana please u.
i wana be more gentle in spirit...
i wana seek u b4 i do anything..
i wana obey wat the holy spirit wants me to do..
i wana study hard.

pls soften the land.
i wana see fruits.
i wana testify ur miracles.

-nv receive bcoz u nv ask-
not only ask, i should act it out
do my best in wat i can do & trust in God for wat i cannot do =)
yups.

btw. yes.
she's irritating .
boo.
she break my day.
decided le....
next time cannot allow her to spoil mt beautiful day.
blehz!
tik i am so dumb to entertain her .. aiya.
k.. no more complaining...
learning to lurve her... so that i can have compassion=)

as i was flipping thru my sermon book...
i saw this statement....
"No matter wat i do,wat i blive..i will be bankrupt without HIS Love"
wow so cool!!!!
i tik so too=)
If God dun love me, i will be the dumbest ppl on earth..
but... HE LOVES ME =)
i am smart. wahaha
joke.

i was thinking that....
Faith should be in God & not in our grp.
coz...always we felt discourage or even hopeless when our eyes is on our grp...
but if my eyes can look to God... actually the grp is not as dead as wat i can see!
i rmber teaching HuiRu a teaching ytd.
got one point is abt...
"Trust in God for wat u cannot do"
Focus our eyes on God..not Man.
Coz HE is our hope not man. yupz.
cant use our grp to determine how powerful HE is =)

gonna open our spiritual eyes!!!!
see wat God has for us =)
see the potential of the ppl...
see wat they can be in God's hands..
see wat area they can grow in...
yup.
west C is my investment..
wahaha...
all for God. =)

My Day :
Morning- BLUR.
woke up & the 1st thing i tot is.... i muz eat breakfast, so that i can save money,no need to eat out.
den all my mind is abt this that i regret.
y leh?
haha......
after everything.... locked e door(hate doing this) duno y.. hee
the lift came... & realise that i forgot my Hp...
den went back to take....
Lock e door, lift came...
Opps! forgot my water bottle....
this time... b4 i lock my door... i tik carefully, did i forgot anything?
hmmmm nope...
when i board on bus......
AIYA !! my jacket....! gonna freeze to death later...
& i'm with my shorts -_-
Blur?
after eating that bread....
duno y so thirsty, & after drinking 2 bottles of water, still thirsty !!

Noon- did math & went for Cg.
it would be better if she is not ard....
she & her temper... oh my........
scream at me...
i was like.... erms?
i kept laughing... coz i tik its funny... blehz!
met Jerel,Jam & didi...
after she left, jam was like "y she lidat de?"
haha....
peisi :"oh well...i am used to it !"
ting:"teach u one strategy.... juz ignore her!"
ting to HuiRu :"pray b4 u meet her..."
HuiRu to Ting: "LOLX"
Jolene:"She scolded me valgur ytd =("
-silence-
All : "HAIZ"
Jolene:"She will be a good testy thou!"
btw...all the staements are not said at the same time... all diff timing... =)
ting's comment : Cg would be better without her... but it wouldnt be complete...
Moulding moulding !
I Will do my best to love her... yay...
seeing her, its like a great investment...
she might be e one testifying God's miracles ... haha

Evening- Headache!!!
MATHS MATHS MATHS ! ARGH!
had a "burned" dinner...
worry for tml's prac....
thats O Level... once i do wrong... no more le...
scary...
oh God.... u gotta be there =)

my day tml......
fruitful one=)
O level prac..... study.... mit HuiRu...& den EeLee =)

Cool-
buaix

As i read the bible....
i realise that ppl who wanted to serve god wholeheartly..
will always kana alot of objections...
ppl plot again them...
blah blah....
& i also realise that God ALWAYS protected them.
ALWAYS bring them thru everything...
one thing in common is...
the ppl of God trust in God & also communication with God is there...
hee...
seriously... fears are useless...
coz noe it clear that God will surely protect us!

[-2 Kings 6 : 15-17-]
15 When the servant of the man of God got up and went out early the next morning, an army with horses and chariots had surrounded the city. "Oh, my lord, what shall we do?" the servant asked.
16 "Don't be afraid," the prophet answered. "Those who are with us are more than those who are with them."
17 And Elisha prayed, "O LORD, open his eyes so he may see." Then the LORD opened the servant's eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.

Also......i read abt the curses that the ppl have if they are disobedient EtC...
den i cant help but to give thanks.. hee...
coz Thank God for Jesus...
He carry everything for us le...
in turn, i've grace rather den curses...
not that God is evil that He curse...
but i tik its the ppl that are the cause...
rmber the song that goes like this...
"Suffer at the hands of those u have created"
argh, something lidat....
yup.
He lurve Us =)

hiyeee!
shall say that my sheep real sweet=)
jolene huiRu plus sharon....
b4 everything...
Jo send me a sms....
saying that she need someone to acc her to eat dinner...
& i agreed...=)
so wat happen was i saw her outside the study room...
den when i go out... *supprise* i saw another 2.. haha
actually jo eat liao le...
the 3 of them are there to deliver dinner for me !
how sweet is that?
hehe...
when i open up the lunch box.. or rather dinner box...
i can only see white rice...
haha...
& another bowl of soup...
my question is.... "lidat how to eat arh?"
Jo-Sharon-HuiRu: hehe... sorry leh... only got white rice & soup...
oh well... its ok!! haha...
the home-made dinner was great !!! (thou only white rice & soup)
wahahaha!!
thankie galz=)

weeeee~
did my journal le..
have u??
cool!!!
i lurve doing this kind of thing...
kinda motivate me =)
wahahaha!

this coming thurs is my O Level practical le...
kinda..... scare!
"heart beat very fast..."
haha!!!
u noe arh.... now the focus is outreach!
coz when the skool door is close...its quite difficult le...
there is a time for everything...
now is the time to outreach, dun wait till harvest time den outreach... that will be too late ya?
RISK IT OR REGRET IT.
yeah.

u noe wat?
i reali desire to see a strong community in west C.
i tik God is on my side... u noe y?
coz last week shirls talk abt community...
den the up-coming camp its abt team.
haha
how ideal is that?
wahaha...
wow God, west C gonna be strong, all for U x))

b4 i tug into my bed.. i shall blog...
=)
recently i am dead tired...
dun have insomnia lately.. haha
good good =)

y izzit always when we talk to God..
"Dear Jesus..........(prayer) in Jesus name.. amen"
den no more...
y izzit alot of times, we nv wait for HIM to speak b4 we ZZzzzZzz ?
i muz not be like this...
i cant afford not to listen to His voice.. ya...
i already make it a point...
i muz spend time with Him after i bath (thats my most refreshing time) & b4 i go onto blogger,msn,preparing teaching,blah blah.....
dun wana QT juz b4 i sleep... coz that will become a "rusing" QT..
yupz =)

i reali desire to see a strong community in West C..
thats wat i wana see....
ppl will be so loving that none of them bear to leave the community...
when one person nv turn up for any activity. they will be so concern that they initiate to call the person up..
where everyone take good care of each other...
challenging, encouraging & growing is not only the shepherd's of that particular sheep responsibility, but its everyone in West C.
grow together, serve God as one body...
thats wat both God & ting wana see ! ya?

had our 1st West C gathering games...
one word. FUN =)
thank God for Jolene & Jingmei =)
hee.... tik we disturb alot of peeps.
sorry bout that =)

WORLD CHANGER ! =)
thats gonna be .... me!! wahaha...
everyone can be one lar.. =)
willing to give up EVERYTHING for the KOG..
not easy... but worth it =)
tik... there is nth more impt den God.. yupz.
so kuku to give up God...... yeah?

MATT 16:26
What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?

My Leader's success is my success
thats the spirit =)
yay... juz a check...
"when is that last time that u've affrim ppl?"
haha...

ya... i tik arh... the quality of the leadership team in a grp its that impt lar..
it determines alot...
west C de seed leh??
hmmm... muz do something abt it =)

aaron did something cute.
haha
he bought alot of "xiang xiang" & hang in my toilet...
two for the toilet bowl...
3 for "xiang-ing" the toilet.
5 xiang xiang !!
can u imagine???
hmmm... tik.. y muz aaron do that???
haha...
smelly lar! E-u-g-e-n-e-N-g-w-e-e-g-e-n-e
he's the cause.
=p

something's wrong with me..
reali wrong...
i noe it all along.
that's tourturing to both u & me.
isn't it?

can say... today had a fruitful day studying =)
chem chem chem chem.......

i tik i should change my name to kuku...
damn kuku lar.. haha
u noe wat?
i went to CC study mah...
i took the wrong bus.. haha!!!
den nvm.. after that rite, i reach le...
den i need this card to enter the room...
den go hm need to return..
& i forgot to return...
when i reach the interchange den i rmber...
so..... i too bus & went back again...
at that moment... i am like dying...
when i am walking... or on the bus...
i am in "dreaming" mode..
haha
so so tired..

thou i said this many times..
but i have to say this again...
too convicted le...
its nv nv a mistake to purchase a bus concesion(?) ...
coz i often do something kuku...
yupz.
=)
haha....

tml west meet le =)
wee-wee- !!!
gonna be a life changing moment =)

tik i got up at the wrong side of my bed today...
feel like boo-ing myself..
watever i do.. its not of my best of mood..
noe that is not gd to be moody..
hmmm... mayb a scream will help?
argh..!!!
haha...

reminded of a verse..
"work for the Lord not man"
alright..
muz do my best.

*count down*
one month & 9 days.. i will be free=)
hohohoho!

-----Original Message-----
From: GOD [mailto:anytime@anywhere.com]
Sent: Tuesday, February 25, 2003 6:33
AMTo: All_Mankind@fishersofman.com
Subject: Just Wanted A Minute Of Your Time

As you got up this morning, I watched you and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday - but I noticed you were too busy trying to find the right outfit to put on and wear to work.

I waited again. When you ran around the house getting ready I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were too busy.At one point you had to wait fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip.

I watched as you went to work and I waited patiently all day long. With all your activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me. I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt too embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay.

There is still more time left, and I have hope that you will talk to me, yet you went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done you turned on the TV.I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there & you spent a lot of time each day in front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talk to me.

Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said goodnight to your family you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience more than you will ever know. I even want to teachyou how to be patient with others as well. I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought or a thankful part of your heart.

It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well you are getting up again and once again I willwait with nothing but love for you hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day!

Your friend,
GOD

"There's no higher call than to worship you....."
noe y i lurve this statement?
coz this is to remind me that there is nth more impt den God =)
God number one !!

haha...
i was thinking.. how to let ppl lurve God & willing to lay down everything juz for Him alone...
even life......?
so i got a conclusion...
that will be.. let them noe How Much God lurve them 1st... =)

hmmm.. sometime during P&W time...
we cant praise & worship Him..
coz our mind flooded with many tots..
may it be discouragements.. etc..
rmber someone says that..
"if u choose to tik abt all these or rather bcoz of ur personal feelings u dun worship & praise HIM with ur heart... u are saying that the things in ur mind are more impt den God. coz b/w worshiping & dwelling.. u choose dwelling den to worship..."
and i agreed =)

wow... had my 1st "tuition" with jacelyn & dai xuan.. haha
thank God for them =)
reali leh.....
as wat joyce says.. God's favour is on me...
ya i tik so !!
coz so many ppl helping me...
cannot let them down =)
thank you daddy x))

reali wana thanks eelee, shirls & fellow sister-in-christ =)
hee... i am in serious need of tuitors
one prob... i scare i duno wat to ask them...
but anyway... its always good to be in the kingdom of God..
coz God will always provide.. haha !

was thinking b4 i slp...
if do ministry is not for the sake of God, den it will be wasting of time..
like... do ministry with the wrong motives...
wana attract some other ppl attentions.. blah blah..
nv nv for God.. den wats e point?
hmmmm... i guess all these will be tested when u have to get out of ur comfort zone..
coz u will come to a point realising that.. y feel so not comfy? its for the KOG mah....
no matter wat u do.. wat roles u are serving.. its for God mah...
so y so concern??
oh well.... all for God...
thats my tot =)

the N Level peeps so shuang....
holiday liao...
haha
but i can confirm that after my O's, i will be double shuang den them !
wahaha !!!!

juz realise that my cousin belongs to the same cg as my classmate...
haha!
that classmate that cause ppl to have bad impression towards CHC..
oh mann... but nvm. we are all sinners =)
i pray that i will shine for Jesus... not causing ppl to have bad impression to Hope & Jesus...
heard one of my classmates screaming to my another classmate "all bcoz of u.. i hate Jesus"
oh my.. when i noe abt this... i am damn shock lar..
thats the last statement that i wana hear frm my non-B frenz...
haha
i wana them to tell me... "all bcoz of u.. i tik Jesus is real.."
wow....
yupz... muz shine for Him... yes muz !!!! =)

kk... gtg... study !!! today is chem day...
chem leh !!!!!!!!

-t in g g ` i s d e c a y i n g =)

tingting bu yao
tingting bu xi huan
NOOOO !!!!!!
bu kai xin...
=(

hai ya... plus dun like studying...
1 more mth to go...
i reali look forward to 22/11...

Anyway... Its For Him =)
Thankul That I Have Jesus With mii... =)

oh my... i am super hyper today!
hahaha!!!
my mouth have not shut since skool...
thank God the ppl ard me got e "element" of 'I'...
if not i surly become pest de... heez
aiya.... to jem & jed.... haha.....
i tik u are my victim... erms....
pai seh arh =p
thats all bcoz i slept well last nite =)
haiz....duno how long nv enjoy my sleep le...

argh... my prelim's result no good no good!!!
well... i am not as sad coz got improve alot compared to my mid year...
but... i need EXTRA effort.
O Level is killing me........ it is.
but.... when Jesus is with me, i shall not be afraid...=)
its juz that alot to catch up & i am dead tired.

eelee : yup work very very hard now. Just tahan for one more month after that u can enjoy e fruits of your labour :)

and ting shall say.... AMEN !!!!!!!!!!

hey... so cool...this coming sat is the sat that west C gather together & have games ! =)
weeeee~ *Clap Clap* to HuiRu & Jolene =)

juz realise that iweb tune is working again.... haha....
was telling huiRu that songs in blog is outdated le...
wahaha.... but my blog still got song...
hahaha....
contridicting...*spelling errors?* =p (opps)

tik will remove iweb frm my blog =)